"Section 3,Bed 5,Pte Tan Jiawei, AFS." Yes!! i guess i am out of army's hand...haha...I will be reporting to Air Force School on Monday.Guess i will be trained to ADA Spec. well,i will find out on monday. When i first step into Hotel Coy, my goal was to work hard, perform well and cross over which i failed. anyway getting this consolation prize also not bad at all...in fact this was my hope if i dun crossover. BSLC is finally over for me. Gd thing is i never got to go back to that SISPEC for ASLC. However, 2 of my section mates suay suay got there...felt quite sad..
Btw day before my graduation parade, I have to go through a 28km route march over the night...we set off at 10pm and complete it in the morning around 6am. for the first 4km, my mood was rather high..as the distance got longer,everyone start to show their tired and slpy face including me. at 24km rest point, by right everyone sld be happy becos we left with last 4km. by left, we all looked worse than a dead person...whole shirt was wet, abrasion and blisters everywhere, Z monster attacking and shoulder pain. the moment i complete it, all i can tink of it bed. i just wan to throw everything down, go to bath and slp...but we cannot..we still need to go thru the parade first...Oh man...standing at the parade square in FBO, gave me a feeling of wanting to fall out...but seeing the rest suffering the same fate as me, i decided to endure it though my knee start to hurt. this 28km will be my last route march...no more route march for my NS...woohoo....
42nd BSLC in Sispec...9 weeks of Sispec is over...next week will be my last week in BSLC...though it is just 9 weeks, it seems so long for me...but life in there i guess is much better than bmt actually...perhaps is becos my coy got a very gd OC ba...always there to motivate us;though some dun really bother. he gave us a lot of welfare man...slping in training shed during field training...haha...never expect such gd thing...the only regret perhaps i had was not expressing my interest in wanting to crossover to OCS...sad~ but i guess i will get over it after i got my new posting...praying hard not to get into ASLC...haha...anyway i am glad too that i pass my IPPT with gold and pass my SOC..SOC actually i hope to get better timing but afraid that i will fail if i take again...haha...as for ippt, quite frustrated on how i jump 234cm on my test date..i can hardly jump there now...the most painful thing is hearing ppl saying my gold is fake one...hai~ really hope to go back to silver since i am not capable...
starting from 5th week of my training, schedule was so tight that most of the people do not have enough slp...field camps,live firing and navigation...talking abt navigation, it is really hard to do so in "small garden"...wat i mean is imagine in the jungle/forest, trees are everywhere...u r to find ur way tree the jungle to get to the checkpoint...a small deviate in bearing and not calculating the distance properly can make u get lost in there...and the funny thing is, once the group get lost, the next thing they do is scold, "where the fuck are we????!!!"haha...everyone is tired and dun feel like walking...this is where u got to see individual character...and worst thing is map do not show wat trees are available on the map... the thing i hate abt field camp is u do not get to bath and eating combat ration, no bed to slp and doing things at night is so diffcult...
during the 5th week of my training, i was being appointed as a LSM, Leader Sergeant Major...basically i am to take control of whole coy...when i took over, i was so stressed...becos most of the warrant officers will scold u like shit if things are not done well....but becos of this stress, i guess i did quite a gd job as my platoon sergeant said i did quite okay...however, my communication skills got to improve...haha...for me, when i try to shout things out, ppl can hardly catch the words coming out of my mouth...tat is where is need to improve a lot according to my section commander...anyway holding this appointment can be fun if u see it as a way of learning new things...not everyone get the chances to be one..thus being able to hold such a appointment can train urself on leadership skills and getting to know urself better...
physical training is sispec can be tough but tinking after the training, i will improve my ippt give me a motivation to do it well...there can be a lot of running...sianz,shag but all running are gd to me...anyway i feel that training in this aspect is quite minimal in my coy liao...my OC see that our physical are better than previous batch, so reduce most of it...however, as time pass, we are not improving, just maintaining...previous batch of ppl are improving every week...thus i recommended in my AR tat more runnning and physical training shld be given to next batch of trainees...haha....
talking abt food, services in cookhouse 3 i believe can be improve more...the queueing time is a bit longer than tekong...food were quite nice for the first 3 weeks...subsequent weeks, the food is so boring...everyday 3 meat,1 vege and rice...no noodle or other thing special...food sometimes is nicer than tekong's...sometimes not really...cut fruit always not enough...eg. watermelon...this will never happen in tekong...thus everytime got cut fruit, u can see everyone trying to faster go grab one...
next week will be walking my 28km graduation road march...hate it but have to go through it...thereafter, i will officially promoted to my corporal rank, my first rank in NS...my words to those going through BSLC next time, enjoy it...training can be tough but at the end of the day, u r a better person... when u got a gd fitness level,u will feel a satisfaction and, u can walk around with ease...u r proud to be one of the fit guys around...those wanna crossover to OCS from Sispec, work hard in physical aspect and be sure to grab every opportunities to be an appointment holder(LPS/LSM)...when u got it, perform it well...prove urself...most importantly, EXPRESS UR INTEREST...try to do well in all test...
Before i enbarked a new chapter of my NS life, a few friends was talking to me abt my posting matters...after much tinking, i decided to just go on with the course and try to get platoon best..if i get, it will be a bonus...if not, at least i am a sgt at the end of the day...
- Rank is what you wear, Appointment is what you hold, Respect is what u earn-
the above phase inspired me a lot to be what ever i am... it is very true when i think of it...i may not command the respect all officers deserve, but i can earn my respect from my man if i do my job well, lead them well and treat them well....i have seen ppl with officer rank but does not really gain respect to the officer for some reasons which i dunno...
first week of the SISPEC training just ended...this week was somehow long for me, though not as long as OCS cadets...i am in hotel coy now...at first tot, whao, what is this coy? never heard of it before...shld be somehow relax...but it proved me wrong on thursday when all the tough training really rolls in...i had my ippt CAT test on wednesday and was rather disappointed with my running...i used to run 10.05 min at BMTC but it deprove to 11.09 min after 3 months of slacking at AFRC..rather sad to see such result...nevertheless, i will try my best to improve it and get gold for ippt...today(fri), i got soc lesson....had to do a rundown twice...was damn shag but i push myself beyond my limit...at the end of the day, i was quite satisfied becos i faced it bravely...haha...more tough training to come and i will carry on to face them...hehe...
On the 18th, i will be reporting for my new training school - SISPEC...yes...i am going to be a sergeant for my NS...i was very disappointing upon hearing such a news as i was really pining high hope of being an officer..well, guess i am not up to it...so when i knew abt it, i was in a down mood...my gf tried to cheer me up but i just couldn't relieve myself and believe i am in sispec then...after some calming down, talking with a friend and my gf, i manage to stand up again and decided to give it a shot...whether a best shot or not i am still considering as i am afraid if i hope for the best again, the worst will turn me down again..oh well...bye bye to my kit kat bar and the honourable sword... =(
it has been a long time since my last update my blog..reason being nothing much to update abt...currently still as a FEP trainee...it is abt being the few lucky ones to be chosen to sign on as a RSAF pilot...but before we do, we have go through the 3 stages which is pilot selection board interview, medical checkup and CPSS...if u pass, u will leave here early to fly to Aust for AGC...if u fail any of three stages, ur life is gonna be boring...we are being treated as if we were kids, which in fact we begin to act as one now...we have freedom but to a certain degree...we are not allow to slp most importantly...but how are we going to fight the Z monster when we have nothing to do for the whole day except talking and eating and drinking...all the clerks are fine to me except for the chief clerk...though she can be helpful but she can damn noisy(kp i mean), very rude and suddenly come out with many fancy reasons to stop us from doing certain things...such as playing soccer when the PSI is above 100...i can understand her concern for us but does she ever think or understand how we feel to be bored???time pass damn slow u know?basically i will say this is not really a wonderful vocation for those ppl who like to chiong like me...i dunno...cos i tink going there is a waste of time...in fact for those who does not aspire to be pilot, this can really waste their time...however, i would not deny this vocation is the most wonderful u can ever can if NS life when u do nothing, no field camps, no PT...nothing at all...
today one of the cleaners in career centre passed away in an accident...she is quite old, very old, slow movement but still can manage to maintain the whole career centre in a clean condition...everyday she comes with her daughter who got a bit mental retarded...this morning, i tink i only got to see her twice and twice less than 1 min....ard 11+, she was on her way home...she was walking on the pedestrain pavement beside the road when this idiot driver of a speeding lorry[i not sure whether did he speed or not cos mention by other ppl] bang onto a stationary van[which i tink actually the van was moving,just slower than the lorry]. the van overturned and crush onto the old lady...she was sent to hospital immediately...i bet the ending needless me to mention it...it was a sad case...very sad...though i am not close or a friend of her, but her lost somehow affected my feeling..i couldn't accept the fact that the person i saw 2 hours ago just left the world suddenly...the whole office seems very quiet, very silent when the news abt her death spreads...she was the most innocent person in the whole accident...i heard from my chief that her heart stop beating twice...i was tinking was she trying to struggle to live as she cannot bear to leave her retarded daughter behind? i really hope such days will not come...i got to change my attitude i treat towards ppl esp my close ones...i will never know when will be my last sight of them...
dear cleaner auntie, i hope u will leave a gd life in ur next reincarnation...u will be remembered by most of us...
Just got my posting today :
Your Posting Order is listed below:
1.You are posted to AFRC.
2.Your vocation is FEP Trainee.
dun really know what is this...i will be reporting to air force recruitment centre at cmpb on monday...i just hope i will be desk bound...sigh*
